veritas

i know i’ve talked before about certainty and the uncertain life we lead. i feel now more than ever that i am certain about who i am, where i am going and what i want in life. the doubts that have been haunting the cobwebs of my mind are still ever present, but i’m trying not to let them consume me. 

post bonnaroo brought many changes, some good and some bad. i didn’t necessarily think that a long weekend in the middle of TN would alter me drastically, and yet, i know it opened my mind to the possibility that it might be time for a change. i just hope that i continue to make the right choices and tread along the right path. the most recent of decisions has left me feeling sad, hopeful, and utterly confused. it wasn’t easy deciding and it still isn’t, i want to go back and be in my comfort zone and not worry about this new stage i’m entering. but if i do go back, if i reverse my decision (if it even can be reversed), i believe i am bound to feel these same urges knocking at my heart’s door once again. perhaps three months from now, perhaps three years, but nevertheless i will crave this need to change. it is in my nature to change, to fly and for now, i think it’s time for me to fly solo. 

but please know…i’ll always love you.